Sunday, October 19, 2014

Rajasthan Vol 2 : Blues Cafe






2:20 PM Blues Café Jaisalmer

Blues cafe happens to you when you lose the tour guide.
Blues Café in a blind alley
I forgot how I came here
And how I took this seat
And why is the guy opposite staring at me the way he does
But it feels nice
I see colors in the distance
And ambient music
Misdirected sounds in the air
A rip roaring festivity in the streets
A chuckle of the couple of couples around
A burning roof of stone
Blues yellows and pinks fly
Someone orders “Just Lemon Juice”

Almost sounds like a perfect drink to me


Rajasthan Vol 1 : Buses that sell dreams





Any trip to Rajasthan has to have few essentials- dust, turbans, street chai and devotional ring tones, in no particular order. And my trip was no different. Over a period of 5 days, I travelled to from Jaipur-Jodhpur-Jaisalmer-Jodhpur-Jaipur, and it was full of surprises and upsets, both very memorable, much like the ring tones.


8 am 2nd Oct Bombay Motors, Somewhere outside Jodhpur
Phew. Waiting at makeshift boarding points at the wrong end of midnight. Boozed out hopefuls for company, dusty hostility of the road playing mildly offensive passenger on a night that never ends. Turbans popping out 2:30 at night. Schoolboys stepping in with a meeky face and nonchalance that could chew and not spit the bus out. Rattling bus, rattling windows, out of nowhere a religious rock star belting out prophecies to inanimate living objects, something about the presence of Mahakaali indicating that there must somewhere be a Mahakaal?

Jodhpur- all dust and yellow, the lonely planet-friendly aasmaani color nowhere to be seen. People at the mercy of buses or buses at the mercy of people. Snores all the way in the blue neon light, and out in the faint proximity of the skeletal bus, a feedback box of all the things. And a list of things the driver should not do. The apparent irony seems to have the better of me.


As I familiarize myself with this strangely comforting yet painful(on my body) posture and begin to nod off, one business class traveler halts the bus in the middle of nowhere for a package from a confidante. Sure, I am not the only one who is having a sleepless night here. He collects the package, and returns to his rear seat, cursing all along the way and kicking all sorts of packages lying wrapped in white village clothes, there could be bodies inside or there could be a late monsoon’s harvest.
The big orange semi-dream of the private bus takes forever to depart. Guns next to me, smiles and utters some alien compliments. I take them for what they are worth and return the smile with a warm gesture, all I can muster after the night on road.

One disproportionate lady’s need for seat overweighs the need of an easy on trigger semper fi and a city slicker . 3 people die each time you hear the bus make that sound, there is a black hole at the rear end , mahakaal mahakaal… 

He swaps the seat with me and gives me the window, probably after looking at all the things I am carrying. The bus seems to have a monster of a heart, accepting villages upon villages in its already crammed passage. Suddenly the excess baggage slips on to the seats, like an unsaid rule. And me and Guns get a middle aged local woman, with ornaments equal to her body mass. Now I have Guns, ornaments, my camera, and Anthony Bourdain pulp novel, and a travel journal on one humble seat. I look out of the window, and there is wind like no other wind ever. Ornaments assures us it will be a small inconvenience, and I can’t quite make out what she refers to as part of that- is it her constant calls to her relatives back home (which is somewhere between Jodhpur and Jaisalmer I am guessing), or life in general. May be she is aware of an apocalyptic event that we are not. Nonetheless, I wait eagerly for either to happen, as anything would be better than a working military rifle rattling next to me.


Her fated village never seems to arrive. She leaves the seat to us in what turned out to be a momentary burst of ecstatic relief, as she comes back in seconds shrugging her bejeweled shoulders, its gonna be a little longer!

To look at the metaphysical, for all the pain she has caused us, I am sure she makes a mean curry back home…

Each time the bus pulls the brakes, a village dies somewhere. May be there are sacrifices being made, bodies being offered. Who knows what exists beyond this mass of human bodies, all in good colored clothes and a million pieces of silver jewelry.


We stop at villages, and the multi-tiered passengers buy water, and I almost feel like a watcher, water bottles and money being thrown in front of me, bottles go up, money comes flying down. Sometimes if the buyer is not happy, the reverse happens. I almost forget that I haven’t eaten anything all night.

But the wind makes me forget it all. It is true, when you travel to Jaisalmer, you inherit much more than the wind. 


Saturday, October 18, 2014

Late afternoon early evening



Back in the city 
Hanging lights, laughter in the air
A cold dark stout for company, 
Overcast skies outside, a strange cold comfort of a bar stool.
Maybe I will get a chocolate brownie and coffee in the evening,
Which will be in few hours from now.
Thinking about nothing while looking serious,
The self-sufficient DJ shakes next to me, drinking the same stout.
Waiting for my hot dog while an invisible Elvis rocks in front of me,
Dusty lights limited brews  
It would make a colourful yet sombre picture 
Groove’s in the air people clicking each other and themselves.
Looking at themselves through each other,
A city that has money in its pocket and on the streets.
Jailhouse rock indeed.
No bad moon rising this,

You say goodbye and I say Hello.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Kuch ajab khel...





Drift away
This is a promise
Of generations

Kuch ajab khel kartar ke
Mor-e-saieen ghareeb banwaaj ke


From the streets we sat across
And the cafes we skipped




Aik ko deen-o-mulk tha janay

Aik bheekari anaaj ke


There is this little Parisian desire...
To sit amidst
Folded hands
And reserved words and looks


Aik ko deen-o-hath main kaasa

Aik pehnaway taaj re


Your promise felt a little easier
When you were around

It came easier.

Milke bhi na milna
Kuch ajab khail kartaar ke






Dard ka silna
More saaieen ghareeb-banwaj ke

Saari raat jo guzaari teri fikar wich
Dil na thaama sahil koi
O te phirta Raanjha koi
O di ajab firaak hoi





Tere naam di umar
Mere sawaalon mein phansi
Tere yaar di fiqar
Mere jawaabon ko chubhi


Through the harsh clouds
And the salty rains
I see your face
And it all makes sense




Aaj latha naeeo
Ankhiyaan da chaar
Tu thodi der hor theher jaa


Say it again
And say it without the wink.




Tu thodi der hor theher jaa


Hold the world at ransom

Tera takna e ankhiyaan ne raar
Tu thodi der hor theher jaa


It is where we started
It is where we stand now

Time moments seconds hours weeks
Gasps of breath
Hollows of nights

Raat na aaye lange maahiya
Paavein mukh jaavaan main
Naave tere laaeeyaan
Ik ik saavaan main

Dhola ik vaari meri man jaa
Tu thodi der hor theher jaa



Thursday, October 15, 2009

Jal mein kahin




So jaane do

Ruk jaane do

Leheron mein kahin

Doob jaane do

An innocent heart full of images

Mujh se kahe

Ek Jalpari

Doob jaane do

Jal mein kahin



She looks at the open skies

And it all looks possible

Waves come crashing

And it is a perfect world

A world at chaos

A world at peace

A world at love

A world at war








Shadows chase the sun

The sun takes a break

More piya

O piya

Kehta jiya

My soul is out there somewhere

Jal mein kahin

Tu hai kahaan

Main hoon yahaan

Jal mein kahin







There is that little worry

Of how it all always comes true

And there is that little look in your eyes

The one that took us this far






Piya gham diya

Gham mein ek sukoon

Delight in pain

Pain in delight






Ages later we would see

Jal mein kahin







The spark that stayed

Over the horizon

And slowly it took turns

And the spark turned wide

Across the waves

Piya re piya re

A blithe spirit

An innocent charm

Paavein jaan jaan maine tere te maan

Kar lai pehchaan

Do zind de jaan

Paavein jaan jaan maine tere te maan

Kar lai pehchaan






Tu hi zind te jaan

Dil majboor

Mera ki kusoor

Jaane huzoor mere huzoor

Sehni ni judaai

Meri au kamaai

Jaane khudaai

Ankh tere na laai

Tu mera dil

Tu meri jaan

Jaane jaan

Meherbaan

Saamne tu baitha rave

Har vele main taqdi revaan

For your eyes

And that spark

That entered a life

And a life

That entered the spark

O re piya

Kehta jiya







Tu hai kahaan

Main hoon yahaan

Jal mein kahin…





Wednesday, October 7, 2009

The Red Bus & The Missing Ticket



If you want to do it, then we can arrange some stars
There might be a shortage of dreaminess...




But we will make up for the clumsy resistance between your worries and mine.



And sometimes it was the angry mystique traveler
And sometimes his lack of aggression



But I was thinking yet not thinking as yet thinking yet to come



Not to say it had me miss the spot once again



There came these two
Bearded with glorious time, and smoked in gentle pause
And they handed over the anonymous child.
It had a name.

Friday, September 25, 2009

ode to the wind



Too much silver at the glass outside

And a little leaf skipping its step

Over the brick tarmac

Sound of rapids

Heard where they are not.